How it all Began: So I went into this process thinking I was so smart. I had done my research and I had talked to people who had adopted and I had a cousin and a childhood friend who had been adopted. I told the adoption agency that we wanted a healthy child, I did not have the time, money, or patience for a special needs child. I knew my limitations. We chose to adopt internationally because a lot of the kids in foster care in the US had special needs and the potential for reunification with birth parents was not something I could handle. I also love Central and South America and had been to several countries there. We eventually decided Guatemala was the country we were going to adopt from. The country fee was a bit higher than other countries but that was because the kids were in foster homes with only one other child and the foster mother could have no more than 2 of her own. I felt that they were better taken care of than in industrialized orphanages. I was wrong. Well, I wasn’t wrong, I was uninformed. Attachment disorders are a very complicated beast.